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Thursday, March 3, 2016

One foot in front of the other...

Little one. You are a big sister now. It's been over a year since I have decided to write something to you, and now I feel I must write for both you and your brother.

Today I want to tell you how in the middle of a manic morning I was able to stop and marvel at your bare feet. They have all of a sudden gathered rough spots. When running my fingers over your feet and oohing at your toes, I noticed... at your heels, slight patches of dry skin. They're not like Jack's feet at all. He still has baby-smooth skin, despite running around without socks and shoes. Are you growing up, my first born? Ha - saying that makes it sound as if I would one day have one or two more babies... but that's not the plan these days.


You're two and a half years old and bright as can be. Daddy and I love when you surprise us by saying something so beyond your years - and there are always people commenting about how articulate you are. It really is so remarkable. You will never know how lucky I feel to be your mom. 

Hopefully with this first dip back into jotting thoughts down for you both I can collect something you will one day be able to enjoy. Insight into the craziness of caring for what a year ago I would have called "two under two." Now there's no cute phrase... Jack is 16 months and you are 5 months away from turning three. We have been trying to teach Jack to walk holding hands and just the simple act of being between the two of you and walking you from the car to a building bursts my heart and makes me hear all of the voices in my head of the people who have said, over and over, IT GOES SO FAST.

Thursday, November 14, 2013

Postpartum: 18 weeks old!

Time traveling Mommy here... almost a year later, back to jot down somethings I hope will one day be insightful for you. I just laid you down in your Pack-n-Play and am listening to you stir. I think if I just commit to 10-15 minutes a day I can really boost my output here. It's amazing how quickly the days go. A few things to note, in simple form:

Your birthday was on a Saturday
You just turned four months old
You have the most beautiful blue eyes and a smile that makes your entire face glow
Favorite things: bath time, car keys, standing up
You were named after your daddy and your middle name is the feminine for John

We still keep you in our room, and it makes me sad that so many people advise me not to, or warn that keeping you so close to me will bite me in the future, when you're old enough to realize that I'm laying you down in your own room and not ours. There is something so wonderful about having you close to me, in my arms, near my heart - I have to be honest, I have at least one thought a day that centers around how absolutely vital you are to me... what I would do if I lost you, I can't even wrap my head around the gravity of that. I hold you and often think of that moment on July 6 when the doctor first showed me your face... and I thought, There she is... we made her, she is real.

Little one, maybe I will be able to give you something here that will be important to someday. This is spontaneous for me... I could possibly be more structured, and focused. Possibly.

Today we are supposed to visit a gym just for you. More to come!